*[babyboii]

2007-04-07T13:37:00.000+08:00

shifted.
runaway-loveee.livejournal.com

bye blogspot, HELLOO LJ :D

2007-04-06T11:10:00.000+08:00

their connection had always been moreee than that (:

school had been fun! :D with 1A05, mostly estrina, sharilyn & vivian!
well anyway, ytd night i accompanied hong han & tim all the way to east coast and east coast really has loads of nice stuffs. (:

alright, MS TSY i dont know how to tag your blog so yes, im here to say:
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY AND I WNA MEET YOU TONIGHT! I'LL SMS YOU LTR OKAY BABE.
muahhhhhhs- =D

i'm going off to meet haolun, sherman & manda for ~~sakae~~ suki feast!
bye

2007-04-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

hearts are soft; they make mistakes.

but still, i want to follow the heart than the mind, this time round. (:

2007-04-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

how can you have so many people surround you and yet still feel all alone ?

I AM THE CENTRE OF THE UNIVERSE

2007-03-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

i hate pw. boo. >[

2007-03-24T12:16:00.001+08:00

give me your absence tonight.
i hoped i made the right decision.

*

i actually spent a week in srjc. kinda used to the no-jovi-ade-A302-sailing trainings-days. and i like my cg mates. people like estrina, sharilyn, vivian & all. (:
haolun & chuankiat's appeals were successful, & chuankiat's gonna be in same class as me! that's just so ffffaaaannntasticc :D
And and, surprise surprise! i've actually been studying! like sitting down for hours and revising my geog, econs, lit.
i just need abit of help in maths. boo. bt weikang agreed to help. :]

You know, lydia can adapt really quickly, and no, she's not trying to convince herself. seriously.
i'm a happyeeee girly. :D

oh well.

--

On thursday, i met up with my sailing friends! and they all look great in tht bluey uni. too bad angela gotta leave early. i really missed her. :(

then, hong han & timothy accompanied me hme. like all the way to hougang which is really far for them considering the fact that they live at some upper east coast place (??) and only been to hougang/kovan for like once ? twice ?

so nice of them. :)

okay, i thought a certain tcher in my school looked like a giraffe. then, estrina said he looked like a tortise. then then, haolun says he resembles this :

vademon

so funny yet cute at the same time right. LOL.

k, bye. i lazy oreadi

2007-03-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

1A05 won the FIRST prize of CEC. YAY! :D

LOL.
Laugh. Go on. I didnt say we're normal.

my favourite girl in the whole wide world. i love you babe. :D

2007-03-11T11:57:00.000+08:00

Somebody says:
what ya doin now?

LYDIA` says:
breathing

LYDIA` says:
hahaha

Somebody says:
lol

Somebody says:
wah!

Somebody says:
breathing

Somebody says:
such a fun thing to do

LYDIA` says:
yea

LYDIA` says:
you shuld try

Somebody says:
ahah

LYDIA` says:
are you trying

Somebody says:
hmm

Somebody says:
very hard leh..

Somebody says:
how u do it?

Somebody says:
haha

LYDIA` says:
okay

LYDIA` says:
i teach you

Somebody says:
yay!

Somebody says:
=)

Somebody says:
how how?

LYDIA` says:
inhale thru your eyeballs

LYDIA` says:
exhale thru your ears

LYDIA` says:
go on

LYDIA` says:
try it

Somebody says:
woah!

Somebody says:
my eyes pain..

Somebody says:
=(

LYDIA` says:
studies have shown tht ppl who CANT do it are well.. abit retard

LYDIA` says:
OH ON

Somebody says:
ah..

Somebody says:
so sad

LYDIA` says:
you're a retard

Somebody says:
i think im a little retarded leh..

LYDIA` says:
OOH NO

LYDIA` says:
how how

Somebody says:
how???

Somebody says:
ahhh

Somebody says:
save meee

LYDIA` says:
you wna visit a doctor ?

Somebody says:
will i still be able to lead a normal life?

Somebody says:
any recommendations?

LYDIA` says:
apart from being retard, i guess you could =(

LYDIA` says:
I AM SO SAD FOR YOU LI HAO

Somebody says:
ya lor

Somebody says:
i am sad too

--

2007-03-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

i'm having fever and i miss my mama.
grah.

Failure's not flattering

2007-03-07T19:48:00.001+08:00

i wanna say a big THANKYOU to haolun (: for evrythg.
it may suck to have bad results, bt things sure got a whole betr with you arnd. :)

--

this morning, onboard bus 34 on a very unfamiliar route to a very -- sch, my stomach started it's usual morning battle. And all of a sudden, i missed 07A302 peeps. badly.

Nobody at tpjc gonna understand why my tummy will hurt in the morning, why i still cover my eyes despite looking like an idiot with my hands/pencil case/wallet when i walked arnd, or tht werewolf thing i crapped abt.

i'm gonna miss Jovita ; and her "allergy" to ice milo & green tea and how she always laughed with me, okay, AT ME and my stupid jokes & nonsense.
i'm gonna miss Adeline ; for all the times that she accompanied me through during others' chinese lesson and how she helped me cut my chicken chop & fish.
i'm gonna miss Andre ; how he will say i'm very orh xing when i tell him dat *ahem* is my boyfriend.
i'm gonna miss Glendon ; and his jovita-lookalike-cat emoticon action. it never fail to make me laugh.
i'm gonna miss Terence ; how he always insisted on taking the middle seat of the lecture theatre and refusing to budge, drinking kopi and all his unlce-ish behaviour.
i'm gonna miss Chong Lip ; the way he goes for second round of food during recess. oh, and his dessert too.
i'm gonna miss Angela! ; my sailing partner :)
i'm gonna miss pretty Becky, Morena, Lizzie, Yong en, Sam, Azy, Katherine, Joyce, qx
i'm gonna miss Daniel, Sheauwei, Shuling & Randy
and and, i'm gonna miss Hong Han, Timothy & zhong wei for all the dinners & fun times we had.

you know, it do hurt to reflect and realise tht at 17 years old, you dont know wht you're doing with your life. you dont even know your strengths. and it really hurt when becky said
"i think your chances of getting in are very slim"
:[

i can alrdy see you shaking your head in dismal, hear your laughter, sniggers, snide remarks and saying tht " oh well, she deserved it"
well, thanks lot ar people.

I just feel like giving up everything and hide in that dusty little corner behind the bicycle at my grandma's place and cry till i fall asleep. exactly wht i did 12 years ago when things went wrong for me.

the thing is, i've probably grown too big already.

Like what manda said, i'm going to a jc where i dont even know where the toilets are.

2007-03-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

Aslyn - That's when i love you

When you have to look away
when you don't have much to say
that's when i love you
i love you just that way

to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
that's when i love you i love you...endlessly

and when you're mad cause you lost a game
forget im waiting in the rain
baby i love you
i love you anyway

cuz heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
cause that's when i love you
when nothing you do can change my mind

the more i learn, the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
that's when i love you
when i love you no matter what

so when you turn to hide your eyes
cause the movie made you cry
that's when i love you
i love you a little more each time

and when you cant quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when i love you
i love you more than you know

and when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
baby i love you
i love you anyway (:

--

my left eye tears for no reason at random timings. it's hurting so badly that at a brightness of level 3, i still find my com screen way too glaring.
this is bad.
i cant wear my contacts and i look fugly with my specs.
this is worse.
gah.

but, never mind. i've got a swensen date on monday with 07A302 to look forward to!
YAY (((((:

2007-02-25T14:21:00.000+08:00

i went clarke quay! :)
with haolun & chuankiat.
guys, join the upcoming campus superstar! i promise to be your fan club manager. and by guys, i am NOT refering to a certain someone who thinks he can sing bt actually, he cant. how sad. lol okay, i'm mean. >]

then, on saturday, we had our sengkang-punggol tour! went chuankiat's den jocelyn's den gina's den haolun's place.
the cookies, the goodies & the beehoon are oh-so-filling. i think i'm growing fat.
& haolun's dad fetched me home. thanks ar! (:

guess wht, it's monday tmw agn lah!
how i hate it. gah.
i'm having a serious headache tht wont go away and i dont know how to do econs. gah.

lazy to type alrdy, bye.

wait,
1) I WANNA MEET MY BABE SOON !
2) guys, i wanna go clarke quay again and eat tao kae noi seaweed and pose for boats passing by! bring me thr ppl. bah

2007-02-17T12:40:00.000+08:00

12 feb

went sentosa with manda, jocelyn, weixing, haolun & chuan kiat. okay, the sun kinda cheated our feelings. it rained mostly. -.-

bt still.. we had fun! :D

{ jocelyn, manda, lyd, chuankiat, wei xing, haolun ! }

{ aww. we all love mr. white teeth :D }

{ frog, horse, fish :)) }

14 Feb

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !

many thanks to all those who spent time wrapping up all the gifts & candies :)

thank you zhengwei for the chocolates, yiyang for e sunflower ! weixing for e bookmarks, zhipei for e rose, manda for e card ! and of cos, 07A302 for all e sweets and fun (how could i forget) ! =D

headed to clarke quay with my lovelies and basically spent v-day@clarke quay camwhoring away.

: hugs&kisses,

{ sweeties, I LOVE YOU ALL ! }

16 Feb

school celebrated CNY. we celebrated shafiq & adeline's birthday ! by singing birthday songs in e lt and presenting to them handmade cards/albums :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAFIQ/ADELINE ! :D

den proceeded to manda's hse for our reunion dinner ! the day ended with us each wielding sparkles in a field and e guys singing (aloud; like they were in a mv) -.-

SHOT 1 : we all ACTed rowdy..

SHOT 2 : we resumed to our usual selves; DAINTY&DEMURE LADIES ! xD

{ all time favourites :) }

P.S : i miss the babe who blogged about me w/o naming me ! meet up soon okays ? :]

2007-02-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

to my cg peeps & jonathan, i'm sorry if i had been rude to you guys or if i look as if depression hit me and i spaced out during conversations and refusing to utter any words suddenly.
this week was.. well, let's just say that it wasnt easy and that many times i feel like giving up and just start crying.

but.. i didnt. i pressed on. :] for i have friends who cheered me up and made my day.
Siying, zhengwei, daniel, liane, shuyi, becky, andre, adeline, jovita etc
i love you, you , you and you. you know it :)
thnks <3

i cant give soln to all of life's problems, doubts or fears.
bt i can listen toyou and tgr we will search for answers.

icant change your past with all its heartaches and pain nor the future with its untold stories.
bt i can be there now when you need me to care.

i cant keep your feet from stumbling.
i can only offer my hand and hope that you may grasp it and not fall.

your decisions in life are nt mine to make nor to judge ; i can only support you, encorage you, and help you when you ask.

i cant tell you who you are,
i can only love you and be your friend.

loves,

2007-01-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

07A302/atlas 4 ((:

gah. im lazy to update lah. worked at national stadium for e dumb asean championship cup which obviously has not much fans given the fact that i actually managed to slack/rot/eat cups of free popcorns etc and still get paid.

i dont like school. okay lah, not exactly sch bt mostly lectures/tutorials.
cos most of the time im only half awake and only realising aftr lessons that i only manage to grasp half of the content. =.-
there's econs test, no not test is exercise next thursday. surprise surprise.
and i hate maths. i got tons of maths hw which i apparently wont be able to do cos i dont understand wht the tcher is teaching and there's no adeline, no terence, no andre to teach me. bah.
screw you, maths. >[

im lazy to type further
k bye

2007-01-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

LYDIA` says:
ure com is slow lah
Zw says:
lol
Zw says:
is urs de
LYDIA` says:
is urs lo
LYDIA` says:
i receive other's so fast
LYDIA` says:
slow like ure non existence brain
Zw says:
as slow as ur brain
Zw says:
poser
LYDIA` says:
poser

see, no wonder we're friends. dont tell me ~~telepathy~~ ; i'll murder you. >]

i miss 4elmo lah. ))):
miss Mrs chia & my BELOVED poa class
miss Miss Oh & my chem/physics class (yes, i miss you PHOEBE !)
i miss my designated seat in 4e ; the one that was my bed for geog/ss/hist lessons.
i miss Mr Seah. =]
.
.
.
and and, I MISS TSY !
p/s : you owe me sakae ! contact me soon kays. <3
=]

2007-01-06T02:14:00.001+08:00

updated/

WEE~
gambette gambette, MJ MJ
gambette gambette, MJ MJ
MJC !
MJ will win the war; who dares to mess with us will be chao ta
who dares to mess with us will be chao ta.
na na na na na~
MJ ar ar ayeh
MJ ar ar ayeh
MJ ar ar ayeh,
swah ~!
((((:

**

ATLAS 4 WARRIORS :D

one, we're from ATLAS
two, we still cant hear you
three, the one & only
four, more more more !
ATLAS !
:]]]]]

**

My Grandfather's getting better ! :))
Thanks dear frrends. you know who you are. [:

I'm so glad i followed my heart.
who knows what kinda lies you're gonna spin next ?
Now let's see..
So, who will be the lucky girl this time round ?
>]

loves,

2006-12-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

i am sorry for what i ve done.
.
.
.

thanks zhengwei
thanks siying
i'll be fine i promise and He will be too :)

people, please help me pray.
pray that my precious Grandfather will get well soon.
very very very very very very very soon.
<3

now for some light-hearted entries,

Four of my favourite boys. They are one reason why live's worth living for. Daryl, Dickson, Davis & Marvin. :]]]]]

take care, lovelies.

2006-12-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

{siying, i miss you like crazy. i really do.}

DOCTORS ARE DAMN BLOODY BIG TIME LIARS
they could have sign a contract with mediacorp and beat Li Nanxing & Ivy Lee hands down.
or maybe even Tony Leung & Zhou xun.
Fcuk the bloody world, man.
damn it.
shut up. i'm asking for neither your comments nor opinions.

**

now tell me, why THAT hurts.
tell me how one day your world seems like nothing could be more perfect&beautiful
and the next moment, everything could come crashing down.

i'm a coward. a damn bloody coward.
i didnt dare to go to the hospital.
i couldnt bear looking at him,
knowing that he seems all healthy and cheery on the outside, yet deep within he's hurting; physically&emotionally,
knowing that someday, he will be gone.

He might not be there anymore
He might not be able fetch me to school
and back home when i'm running a fever,
He might not be able to buy me soya bean milk & chee cheong fun for breakfast when i stay over
and chicken rice & nasi lemak for dinner,
He might not be able to tell me, if i couldnt get a cab, i could go right back to his house.

It isnt fair. this is not fair.
dont come telling me that life is unfair, i'll slap you left right and centre and make sure you bloody get out of my life once and for all.
He is sucha nice man.
Lord, why are you taking him away ?

was it because i was disobedient ?
i'm willing to exchange 50 no, 70 years of my life and all it takes to have him back healthier than any living person.
i'll give you back ALL my christmas gifts for this life
Dear Santa, will that work ?

this must be a joke that elves, fairies, pixies, gnomes are playing.
Somebody tell me that it is.
It has to be.
will someone just tell me that ?
please. pretty pretty pleeeeeasee.

I told Jaslyn not to cry, to stand tall and strong for him.
yet i couldnt help but break down myself.

it's hurting; it's hurting so so so so badly.

**

and you, bloody asshole. i was right to choose not to trust you.
I was so bloody right. if you couldnt even take this and accept my friends the way i do,
den BUZZ OFF.
I dont exactly need you in my life right now and make my heart even more constricted than it is presently.
Bye-

2006-12-22T13:52:00.000+08:00

CASE CLOSED
wonderful.
am over and done with with some fugly/irksome creature
NEXT PLEASE ! :]]
nono, im just kidding on e third line lah, normally, i l0ve all my friends :)))))

**

Name: 이준기 / Lee Joon Ki (Gi)
Alson Known as: (Lee Jun-gi / ki)
Profession: Actor, Model, Singer
Date of birth: April 17, 1982
Place of Birth: Busan, South Korea
Height: 178cm
Weight: 66'5 kg
Star sign: Aries
Blood type: B

YAY !
yahoo is dummmmbbbb. when i typed LEE JOON KI ; dey flashed one pathetic pict of some little boy climbing a tree ?? =.-"
luckily, there's gooooogle :]
superb handsome right ? :))))))))))
he's a cast from the show MYGIRL
Babe, catch the show. veh nice plus the above/below bonus. :]]]]

saykiat, xianliang, quanfeng called from taiwan :]]]] guess whht qf said ? "wo ba dao mei mei le ! " LOL. so typical of him. aha.

2006-12-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

if you feel that a particular entry is talking abt you, den well it is.
bt if you feel that it isnt, den well..
IT CERTAINLY ISNT lah !
there's like soooooooo many others in my life bt i cant help it if you strongly feel that you're the main character of the entry. :]

i'm not gonna start ranting all the cliches
for instance,
this is my blog, i write wht i want..
gah. i actually thought i would be more pissed den this bt no.
i actually find the whole incident amusing. like ha-ha-ha funny ?
guess it doesnt bothers me anymore
because i know wht you did and you're more lowdown den him.
nono- he aint any bit lowdown so if ppl actually wants to you know, let out the hatred monster dat was caged deep within, it shuld be you as targetboard. and no, im not taking sides, like i said, this incident is very very very highly amusing to me. :D
right. and whyee am i wasting time typing this.
gah.

**
so i actually spent a whole day w mister goh zhengwei looking for jobs.
yes, im jobless again lah. =.-"
from tm to bugis to suntec. filled in like 5 forms ? LOL
and believe me, this joker actually kept me laughing from the moment when i met him till i went hme ? sucha JOKE you mei you.
okay. i'm lazy to type further and i'm running late for my next appointment w him. bye.

2006-12-19T14:46:00.000+08:00

Just what's wrong with you ?
what the hell is your freaking problem ?
i'm no longer yours to control and FYI, you DO NOT, i repeat/emphasize DO NOT have the right to interfere/intervene with my life.
not right now and not ever in the future.
reflect on yourself and your acts before you actually touch/hurt anybody okay.
Get a life, ass. & get out of mine.
don't make me hate you any more, any deeper.
yucks, Jerk.

**
pardon for the erratic entry, people. Lydia's usually vvvveeerrry nice okay ^-^

right. so i zhengwei, weeta, quanfeng, xianliang, ting junjie & me worked at nike warehse sale. ((((:
as cashier on the first day. my i/c was like sooo punctual for.. BREAK ! so i actually have alot more breaks den others. (:
at the end of the day, staffs actually get a 50% discount. so i got a nike dunk @ only $25 !
envy, people. >]
den for the second day, gladys (yep. met her there. =] ) & her cousin & me were assigned to the women's training shoes sect.
believe me, i didnt know there was a diff btwn training shoes and running shoes. -.-"
i wasnt that into exercising, you see.
my i/c is reeallliee nice. :]
and for the last day, we were attached to him too.

i got to know a new friend !
crystelle's her name. (i'm not too sure abt the spelling though)
and sthg funny/freaky happened.
LIMW, you got to listen to this.

crystelle : you know that boy *points at zhengwei* your boyfriend is it ?
me : *shakes head PROFUSELY
crystelle : he looks like CHEN XI. very very very very cute ! actually, CUTER DEN CHEN XI.
me : *OMG OMG OMG*

LOL ! den i told her, he's abit of a retard ! and she insisted that i'm wrong and that he's seriously vvvvvveeerrryyy cuteee.
ohmygosh. i'm so gna puke/faint.
=.-"

and back to work. on the last day, nike perm staff get to pick 5 shoes & 5 apparel for free.
(so good can. we temps could only watch helplessly as they t away our fav shoes/shirts)
okay, i'm exaggerating bt sthg like this happend.
den my i/c came and told us that we could each pick an apparel under his name.
and ltr on, he told me to pick a shoe cos he finds me vvveeerrrrryyy/extremely hardworking !
see, i told you he was nice right. :]]]]]]]]
so i got a $85 trainning shoe for free. and of cos, 2 very nice juventus tee, one white and one black, and a white pants.

i love nike :]

**

& i love jingrui, ah huat, jingjie, ~~allan~~ :]
love them like, soooooooo much.

remember the times when we used to watch you guys play basketball ?
and the endless trips to the mama shop opposite and returns with bottles & bottles of drinks ?
you guys seemed to finish a bottle every two game.

remember how mich and i used to play our trumpets and you guys were amazed by e sound it gave out ?
and not to forget siying's di zi too.
you guys laugh and accused us of noise pollution.

remember THAT rainy day ?
when it rained soo heavily and everywhere else was flooded ?
you guys dragged/dumped/threw/pulled us into the waters and got us all wet.
screw it, if it was dirty and filthy. who cares actually ?
we laughed so much.
that particular shirt i changed into at jingrui's hse is still buried somewhere deep in my wardrobe.
and of cos, his mummy's disapproving looks. TSK.

remember how we used to rush over to that basketball court right after school ?
how even late into the night, we were still in our sch uni ?
we even mugged for our common tests there, i remembered.

remember the trips to pasir ris parks/bbq/sentosa/orchard ?
you guys looked after us and made sure we dont get into any kinda trouble.
and of cos, the breakfast/lunch/dinner meetings.

not to forget, how we all got our hearts broken&mended at the court there.
i remember meetg baolai there.
and mich was w er.. xiaoyu ? aha.
and that fateful day.
mich and i tried our utmost best to cheer jimmy & jingrui up.
and siying was kali pok with ah hao, tgr they would sell kali poks happily ever after.
:]

years later, we met again.
different hairstyles, different dressing sense, different jobs..
even the basketball court changed.
bt the people's still the same. we didnt exactly change, did we ?
aww..
we will all stay good friends forever right ?
:]]]]]]

okay. time to move on, Lydia. :)))))

2006-12-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

okay, so i worked at toy r us as cashier for a day. and singaporeans are like so kiasu cann. the minute the store opened, there's like some aunties and uncles shopping in it right away. =.-"
too lazy to blog abt e details cos basically i rant&rant abt it during chalet to whoever who is willing to listen. aha.

right. so i skipped work and went for 4ELMO's chalet.
mahjong, murderer, heart attack, some snap game weeta taught, bball court, RAIN -.-, BBQ :] ..
the usual stuffs. i guess i will miss this class at the end of the day. like, badly. :[[
poor zhengwei cut his eye. aww. it's from ugly tooooooo uglier ! haha.

lazy, lazy, lazy. :]

TSY : m sorry i couldnt talk to you that day. was working and superb tired le. i miss you babe. you betr turn up for jingrui's birthday okay. now you re working plus im working, it means lesser time to meet up and more missing of you !
QUIT QUIT QUIT !
reasons for leaving : i miss PAIK JEK YIN LYDIA wayyyyyyyy tooooooo much. :]

oh right. i just found out.
its MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE for me.
which means.. no skipping of classes !
and i thought i'll get into tpjc.
Boo. & guohao's in ny. :[
anybody going mjc ?
cos i realised loads of my friends are going ny. :[[[[[[[[[[

you ni zhen hao :]

2006-12-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

okay, in summary..

met up w eben&shawn (: shopped arnd tm for angeline's gift

movie*deck the halls with sayk&shengbiao

found a job ; credits esp to mr yuen xianliang ((((:

workin w *zhengwei, weeta, tingjj, quanfeng

nike s'pore pte ltd

nike warehouse sale @ expo hall 6b

15-17 dec :]

went w zhengwei to shaw centre to apply for e cold storage job

he seriously can go bang his head against e wall -.-" sucha joker.

met up w shandie (((:

thanks for e nemo sweet, e bubble gum & the concealer <3

LUCIFY GATHERING !! :))))))))))))) YAY !

roy's birthday bbq ! :]

jeremy's chalet (though im not sure if i could go cos of work :[ )

*happy feet on monday

4elmo chalet (:

finally, no needa er, according to mr goh zw, stay at home and find half life =.-"

{ HALF LIFE is the time taken for half the number of atoms in any sample of radioactive element to decay }

p/s I MISS TAN SIYING. :[

p/p/s ngjj, hope ure grandma would be okay. :]

2006-12-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

i think im gonna die trying to figure out some stuffs. =.-"
i need TSY !!!
BABE ; rescue me !

**

xxx says:
u oso dunno how i feel ma
xxx says:
in fact for 2 yrs??
xxx says:
watching ur back?
aww..
i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
i'm sooooooo sorry. :[

{ surprise gifts in the mail are nice. but they usually turn out to be of the wrong colour or size. the truth is, only YOU understand your style. }
stupid stupid horoscope that i happend to read on that day.
like that could help resolve my problem.

2006-12-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

okay, and finally some updates (:

27 november
2h( not exactly lah) chalet. (:
checked in round 3+ i think. i learnt mahjong thr ! aha.
den manda&gina came dwn. proceeded to white sands to shop for our bbq stuffs.
even though we were a little bit noisy, it's still fun to make a fuss over almost evry food we chose. :]
den gina, manda, ha0lun, shengbiao & i played UNO stacko.
i lost two consecutive rounds and as a result had to 'borrow' toilet paper from next door.
thank god it was just some uncle and not teenagers ! LOL

ding dong !
me : er, can borrow toilet paper ?
uncle : wht ? bt i only have one roll !
me : er, den a fffeeewww pieces can ?
uncle : um, okay. wait.
*returns with LONG stretch of toilet paper.*

haha. den wandered rnd and snapped picts with ben&jerry's cow !
finally, slept arnd 5+
(((:

28 november
xueling came down and we had lunch while waiting for rain to stop.
at abt 3+(i think) we went into escape. (:
played haunted house, rainbow..
aftr two rnds of rainbow, i felt queasy.
so gina, weixing, haolun & me played the FFFRREEE carnival games while the rest went for viking etc
and i won a DOG ! based on my SKILLS okays not, i emphasize, NOT ANY OTHER MEANS !
and it's named #bryan. right, gina ? (x
went back for bbq. thr was no smoke !
NO SMOKE, NO FOOD !
luckily, shengbiao came and saved us. :]
in the end, there was piles and piles of chicken wings&otahs. =.-"
played murderer & indian poker till like 5

29 november
p/s : HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE ! (x
and phyliscia too :]
cabbed down to airport to send haolun off.
he's going away for 45 days leh ! aww.. :[
alright, den it's home sweet home (((:
yay !

i l0ve this pict ((((:
***

` you this !@#$%
YUCKS.

2006-11-26T13:43:00.000+08:00

25 november
LUCIFY`LUCIFIED @ dbl 0
((((((((:

KUEK !
SHINYA !

went w shandie, ha0lun, wei xing, sherman & zhipei
the concert was absolutely stunning !
and so was the singing, the band, the place and everything lah.
and shinya is so gorgeous can.
he's like so sweeeeet lah, dedicated a song to his girl(i think) . haha.
shand couldnt really see misaki cos he was on the other side of the stage :[
luckily, shinya was right in front of me. HAHAHA =D
wei xing went crazy over kuek. keep imitating kuek's way of calling his mummy =.-"
kelvin's cute; he kept smiling to his fans
vics is cool w his drums and all.
all in all, I LOVE LUCIFY !
((((((((((:
den went plaza to watch them play pool.
i have to say, zhipei's really good. aha.
and sayk cabbed me hme.

gosh, i'm starting work TMW ! i wna die now. =.-"
god, please please let em stash me away in a corner
clean floors, fold clothes, take stocks whtever
just not ask me talk to customers !?!?
AHHH !
and i've got chalet; so its work/chalet/work/chalet -.-
sooo till then, take care peeps. (:

2006-11-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

it caught me by surprise;
how my heart beat faster,
how after such long years you still could take me breath away
leaving me all flustered
and rendering me speechless.
i guess i could never really get over you.

cause you leave me speechless'

2006-11-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

1. Meridian junior college
2. Nanyang junior college
3. St Andrew junior college
4. Anderson junior college
5. Tampines junior college
6. TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE !
7. VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE !

there. it's all done. :]
M/NYJC ; please accept me !
bt i ve got this feelin nudging deep dwn that i'll end up in tpjc. awww.. ))):
and i nearly ruined my chances of gettg into 1st three mths cos i actually forgot to type in TPJC !
thank god, amendments were allowed. =.-"
dont scowl ; dont frown ; dont ~~curse~~ ; dont even think of sayin im mad okay.
well, i mean there's like TWELVE boxes available. sucha waste to leave them blank.
might as well fill it up. let MOE know " i would if i could " and maybe dey ll sympathize and whoala ! i'm in ! =D nthg's really predictable. HAHAHA
manda put Hwa Chong okays. haha.

YAY !
i've got a job !
it's FOX @ tampines mall :]
so.. farewell ; rotting-at-home days.
(((((:

2006-11-21T02:37:00.000+08:00

17/18october
STEP UP is hot okay. finally got to catch it aftr hearing it at soo many macs for soo many times during mugging periods. (:
den camped outside habourfront mrt station.
the boys got inane & played some horse back (?!) game.
though i didnt join in, bt it was fun watching them. hilarious actully.
aha.
and finally, took train hme. slept at 7 woke up at 12.
met njj&zhengwei and cabbed dwn to ecp.
gosh, blading is fun !
okay lah, it was more of "avoiding slopes&downhills" initially. =.-"
but, i still managed to blade my way back kay.
adn that zhengwei is such an ass. he unintentionally/attempted to make me fall down.
>((((
and thanks to guys who helped&teached me along the way. (:

it's THREE am and im refusing to slp.
to ~~not~~ mug, is such joy. =D
i'm gonna play o2 jam w xiaobai le.
(((((((((:
[ all others shuld go & slp ! and not make o2 jam's channels so full that i cant get in ! >( ]

2006-11-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

BYE BYE HISTORY
BYE BYE A1
))))))))))):
shant talk abt it anymore. biggie apologies to pple esp xia0ting & jj. i wasnt in a fantastic mood you see. SORRY !

i'm off to vivo with friends (((((((:
yay ! !
den tmw is ecp
den 27 is 2h <3 chalet
den 4elmo's
den jeremy's
& soo many more !

take care PEEPS <3
=]

2006-11-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

BYE BYE, electrolysis; glycerol&fatty acids; MOLE
BYE BYE, control accounts; financial ratios;
BYE BYE moments; latent heat; alpha, beta, gamma
BYE BYE O LEVELS !
tmw's last day ; YAAAAYYY ! :D

damn it lah. chem pp 2 sooooo tough can.
luckily, mcq was a breeze.
and jason told me that for those who did merger&separation for ss will do betr
since the markers marked more leniently ! HOORAY !
after tmw , i'm gonna slp.
sleeep & snore like pig. =D
yes, i miss my bed & my pillows & my fan lah.
havent been slping well since o's started.

okay, i'm gonna chiong history le.
CHAPTER 6 CHAPTER 6 CHAPTER 6
flood my brains with japan, japan, japan.

<3

2006-11-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

met sy just now. attempted to study. we did, okay ! kaes lah, maybe just that teeny weeny bit, but it still counts right. =DDD
talked abt anything and ervything under the sun.
without words spoken;
without signals made,
this girl here understands&comprehends most.
here i present to you
not just any average ladyeeeeee;
but my bestest girl.
(((((((((((((((((:

hello TSY,
all the best for ure F&N (hist & sci mcq)
A1 ! A1 ! A1 kaes.
:]
meet up on 17th if possible okays.
take care <3

***
got this from gilbert's blog. [:

A-Damn good kisser
B-Good all aronud person
C-You're wild&crazy.
D-You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-you have a nice ass.
F-People totally adore you.
G-You never let people tell you what to do
H-You have a very good personality and looks
I-You get hyper easily.
J-Everyone loves you.
K-You like yo try new things
L-You like to have fun
M-Success comes easily to you
N-You're absolutely beautiful
O-You're an awesome person
P-You're popular with all types of people
Q-You're a hypocrite
R-Sexy!
S-Easy to fall in love with
T-You're loyal to those you love
U-You really like to chill
V-You're not judgemental
W-You are very broad minded
X-You never let people tell you what to do
Y- One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for
Z- You're a little too hard to find

sooooo,
L - You like to have fun
Y - One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for {HAHAHA}
D -you have one of the best personalities ever
I - you get hyper easily
A - Damn good kisser. { ?!?! ~~wtf~~ }

2006-11-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

my dance partner, kuekie !
midnight muggin at kovan's mac [:

~~english~~
~~maths~~
~~HCL~~
~~geography~~
comb humans : ~~social studies~~ ; history
CHEM !
physics
Principles Of Accounts

ONE MORE WEEK TO GO !
YAY ! (((((((:

i love MR SEAH KIM CHYE. he makes ss sooo much more easier. [:
i think my DREAMS was okay. and compre too. aha.
i hope cambridge markers would mark leniently for my weathering qns. :[
and lastly, i wonder how's my maths papers doin. hope dey can fetch me a THREE !
[ betr if it's TWO given that zw agreed to treat me PIZZA ! in return, i would have to treat me him too if he achieved a TWO in his add maths. ): ]
special thanks to zw&jj. both who helped soo much in my maths. (:

(((((: <3

2006-11-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

i am sooooo excited about the big, fat O
=DDD
let's study study study hard okays.
den after that its holidays, camps, jobs & SHOPPING !
((((((:
ps : i miss my friends {sy, limwoan, siewlin, phoebe etc. aww}

MS LENA PAIK
girl, i love you lah !
how sweet of you (((((:
thank you, thank you, thank you darling. <3
please recover soon !

it's the final lap, friends. let's run tgr. :]
all the best

2006-10-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

shijie MAN · says:
LYDIA PAIK
WILL MEET SAYKIAT TML
CONFESS TO HIM THAT SHE LOVE HIM SINCE A LONG TIME AGO
WILL GET REJECTED
JUMP OFF BUILDING NND DIE

LMAO !

2006-10-23T13:19:00.001+08:00

okay, so i wasnt into studying mode ytd
went to vivocity with xianliang&friends & watched deathnote
the movie's not bad llaa.
and i'm so in loveeee with L can
he's sooooooo cutee lah (&intelligent) (x
and vivocity's open garden realliee nice. we saw quanfeng lookalike.
a super tall & slim snowman ! haha
den the guys had much fun at the playgrnd at night.
too bad i wore skirt, if not i would have join in the fun. ]:
okay people, ''m going back to school for physics. ~~shucks~~.
))))))))))))))):

not smart, must mug (:

2006-10-21T12:58:00.000+08:00

as we go on,
we remember
all the times we had together
and as our life change
come what ever
we will still be
friends forever.
(:

2006-10-19T12:38:00.000+08:00

i love this girl.
"bbbbbbiiiiigggg"
hahaha. =D

2006-10-19T11:03:00.000+08:00

alright. updates. hor, SHIJIE ? (:

great. tmw's graduation day.
seems like it was just ytd when i stepped into the school with long ponytails, fringe-less head, knee high socks, skirts that coulda sweep the floors and of cos, a backpack that could throw me off the stairs.
seem like it was ytd when i met you guys. (:
strange isnt it ? how things always work itself out and how the ending is always the unexpected & least anticipated.
pple whom i nvr thought would be friends with turns out to be more than just acquaintance ;
pple whom i thought were destinied to be friends for a lifetime turns out to be people i met just for this phase of time.

we were all secondary ones ytd & now, look at us,
we're juggling with all that mugging, the big O, deciding on JCs&polys and lives after that, and yes, prom night..
looking back at those eventful years
all those failed r/s
all those quarrels&squabbles
all the fun times we had.. (:

HUGS&KISSES to all- <3
you, you, you&you
we may drift apart after that
we may nvr even meet up again
but whtevr life throws us with,
at least i know
in this lifetime, i met you guys. (:
that's more than enough.
afterall, {memories are treasures that no one can steal}.
all the best people. =]

inside 4ELMO <3

2006-10-08T13:09:00.000+08:00

aw, man.
just cant believe how dumb i have been.
shucks.

2006-10-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

hey girl, i wanna catch uree wave
hey girl, i wanna drift away with you
hey girl, you've got an undertow
hey girl hey girl, dont wanna let you go. (:
4ELMO <33

to junjie : thks for the medicine ! (:
to weikang, xianliang, phoebe & all others who cared. thks. =]
to zhengwei : =.-" thanks sooo much for accompanying me hme and den CHARGING me 1dollar for that short journey.

take care peeps <3
P.S. : i miss TSY x)

2006-09-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

english : b4
EMATHS : c6 =.=
chemistry : b3
comb humans : a1
Principles of accounts : a1
chinese : a2
total : 17 pts.

thats my estimated prelims score. ~~damn~~.
well.. evrybody, lets go SRJC fer the first 3 mths. (: ( or IJC/YJC, anyone ? im up for it ! )
go as far as possible. no mj. it's too near. haha. not that i could make it w this kinda kuku score. haha.
-i wna drop to comb science. (provided i can clear the physics part. physics sucks.)
-i wna up my maths by THREE grades in o lvl.
-i wna lose 3 kg. (:
wish me luck, pple. =DDD

JOKE OF THE DAY :
algay&i was walkin back hme and i tried to tabulate his L1R5. it wasnt, um.. desirable.
and i told him that he could be a male nurse. and guess wht did that dumbdumb say ?
he said it's a great choice and that he would be the best remedy for all patients cos they will get well upon seeing his handsome face. den he will be promoted all the way to a doctor !
sometimes, he's so adorable in his own way. this made me laughed my way hme.
xD"

2006-09-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

im dead beat.
went to work with zw for jj dad. aftr the first rnd, while we were walking back, we saw a whole range of bungalows and gosh, THEY ARE SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL can.
it took my breath away.
they were all so huge&spacious&each had their own swimming pool ! i dont care if you call me mountain turtle. the houses were really really alluring. one even was building his own FOUNTAIN. =.-"

next time i wanna build my own housetoo. and number it ELEVEN (:

these houses are in s'pore ! im still in a state of shock.

me & CHINGAY (:
me & ALGAY(e) (:

dumbdumb zw/algay(e) thinks he can jump up high. like a kangaroo.
plaintively, i would say that the stand was short.

it's lunchbreak !

and oh, i visted aaron's school. =]

on the way back in the cab, despite my bruised leg&back and serious signs of tiredness, i SANG. sang bai se feng che, sang back at one, sang twinkle star and sang ABC. since nobody entertain me, i shall be my own entertainment ! (x the taxi uncle most probably thought i was crazy. haha.

it's been forever since you&i last talked.

2006-09-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

today, limwoan, siewlin, weikang, zhengwei, junjie, ting junjie, xianliang, quanfeng, saykiat & i went to escape themepark ! it's been so long since i last visited that place. er, probably sec2 ? haha. nothing much changed actually. just that ALOT of rides are down for maintenance now. =.-"

played GOKART. dumbdumb zw overtake me and still had the cheek to say "byebye!" to me ! >p den me, qf, zw, jj, wk, xl played bumper boats. it was named {operation zhengwei} LOL.
dey said flipper wasnt scary, wouldnt get dizzy. so i tried. guess whht ? im dizzy till now. (xx")
most exasperating event : we went into haunted house. the guide previously leadin us was the 'ghost' now and he had a bloody, gross hand. and he place that thing on my shoulder ; according to qf, who was standing behind and next to the 'ghost', i turned arnd had eye contact w the 'ghost' and it took me abt 5 sec ltr to register that he's a 'ghost' and den scream and run&hide behind wk. and i got scared by that 'ghost' and his hand for three consecutive times. can you believe it ? NEITHER CAN I. =.-"

TrIpLe KiLL..PLaY WiTh HoNoUr...[Affairs Of The Heart]..LiVe AnD LeT DiE.. says:
camp instructor have to lead the grp thru SPOOKY places de lehs
LYDIA` for today, for tmw, for life (: says:
I CAN DO IT
LYDIA` for today, for tmw, for life (: says:
I AM A VERY VERY VERY BRAVE GIRL OKAY

i WILL be a camp instructor one day. >)
oh ya, and i wanna work at escape themepark. :)

gosh. dizzy spells are attacking me ! i totally feel that my room, my seat, my computer is spinning !
i feel im still on that darn viking. [xx]

2006-09-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

YAY ! after weeks of torment&torture, after weeks of mugging
PRELIMS IS OVER !!
im so happy. :) though could say that prelims was a killer. =.-"
hey, at least we spotted the right topics for ss& history.
chemistry was sooooo tough can. its a FIVE for that paper. damn.
not to mention the killer papers -maths p1&2. maths makes me go bonkers.
and POA paper so cute. had all of our names. i kept smiling&giggling away !
cheryl went bankrupt. xiaobai&ck had a business.
the invigilators probably thought i was mad. LOL.

ludicrously, i earned myself a BESTFRIEND ! {MRLIMWEETA}
who was sucha good bestfriend that he refused to get chilli for me . >(
when we were mugging away in green's mac, zw forced my daisy duck to marry his mickey mouse !

ostensibly, i made them signed the divorce agreement. >D

wrecked from weeks of studying, we metamorphose into BLUE BUNNIES. <3>

---

last saturday, we celebrated ahma&ahgong's 50TH marriage anniversary at clarke quay.
it really is a feat to go so far ; so touching. its apparent after fifty years,
they're still in love - :)
feast on crabs, prawns, vegs etc. SO FATTENING (xx")
{i SOOOO LOVE MY FAMILY} :)))

infinitelove-
thank you god <3

2006-09-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

as you can guess, we were supposed to take a picture tgr. =.-"

vice-chair, assistant cleanliness head(&wk) of 4elmo. can you believe it ? haha

i'm exasperated with mr goh zhengwei. he said im gonna get a c6 in tmw emaths test.
~~damn~~
whyee arent i born mathematically smart ?
shucks.

once upon a time, you wore this in your school.
there's sthg bittersweet abt the patented smile plastered on my face whenever i think of you. :)

2006-09-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

I HATE PHYSICS
PHYSICS SUCKS. >(
cant calculate, e instructions&formulae dey gave was totally inexplicable. (it's not me kay.)
the dumb lab was so freaking warm. NO FAN, NO AIRCON, NO NTHG
to make things worse, it was THERMAL physics.
imagine : so freakingly warm, you're perspiring, e numbers and words are like greek to you not to mention frustrations building up inside you
AND YOU HAD A CYLINDER FULL OF WATER AND A CUP FULL OF ICE IN FRONT and you cant drink it ! WTH
and i cant draw the darn graph.
PHYSICS REALLY REALLY SUCKS. boo-

studied again w siew, weikang, waikin, zhengwei (=
and zhengwei is so damn gay. =.-" one day, im really gonna collaborate with limwoan to kill him. firstly, waikin seldom studies w us; and for the times he did, zw wore the exact same shirt as him. den he brought along lollipops with strange flavours. it was supposed to be strawberry yoghurt, yet it tasted like tomyam. yucks. cant believe he's my friend ; my classmate. =.-"

they say friends are family you choose.
like the way i love my family,
i love each and evry one of my friends.
-TSY ( you top my list ! =D )
-6/8 and gang
-4elmo
-DIGIT SISTERS x]
-phoebemindy
-siewlin
-wk, sk, zw, qf
-chem/~~physics~~ class
-jimmy&friends
-jeremy&friends
i love each and evryone of them <3<3<3
LOVE IS IN THE AIR (x

2006-09-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

damn. some bimbos are visiting this site and lamenting it to be too plain. =.-" and wah, [ from history : HIGHER ORDER INFERENTIAL ] tone was so wna pick a fight liddat llaa. cnt help it. the world is modernizing.
guys CAN be as picky as ladies too. (:

anyway, same storyline. went point study w friends. i had to leave early for grandma's place. zhengwei too. and he's like so dumb can. dont even know the way to his grandma's place. =.-" both of us were taking 854 except in diff direction. and we were like how abt you take with to bedok/yishun den up again to yishun/bedok llaa ! bt he's nice enough to accompany me in waiting for the arrival of 854. haha. :) arian's ah ma is in penang, he has to take a flight to visit her while us just have to take buses down.
I AM REALLY LUCKY & I LOVE MY AHMA AH GONG <3>

smile for the day ! xD

2006-09-09T01:09:00.000+08:00

went point ter study w e usual clique. den met up w TSY. saw chee yew; she's grown much much taller, much much sweeter ! and her brother is so cute. haha.
TSY, add him*. i solemnly swear to give in to ALL ure requests, demands !
deal? =D

zhengwei bullied siewlin.
me : " siewlin, ta de L1 deng yu ni l1R4 !
zw : !@#*
x)

my chem/physics class 4EF <3
as we go on, we rmb all the times we had tgr. :)

2006-09-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

she divorced QF for him.

me& siewlin =]studying grp (:
shh. i STOLE this ! LOL
xD

the joys found while studying. I LOVE THEM ALL =)

2006-03-19T17:57:00.001+08:00

Time flies. doesnt it ?

i miss staying at muy grandma play. watching my lil cousin running arnd and squealing about. i miss hearing my grandma telling me "Lydia, qu ch0ng liang. ke yi chi fan lerhhs."
i miss going over to the coffeeshop in the morning with jaslyn den plotting my bum in front of the tv watching e telecast of campus superstar. and how i was debating with muy grndma and her that adriano is good-l0oking.
i miss watching them play o2 jam.
i miss swimming in daryl's hse (how we played ball.) and dickson's lil kicks at night kept me from sleeping. and how i held davis while he whined abt wanting his dad hme.
i miss e calls from dd.

right now, sitting here and typing this i could only wonder and think and miss the past. and how i thought it was weird that alm0st evry sentence i began in muy head started with
"if only..."
if only i could turn back time and let it stands still.
if only the past few days were forever.
there's only so much i can do to reminisce.

i wished with all my heart&soul dat daryl, dickson, davis, linda, jaslyn, tarni, marvin & ah gong ah ma was HERE.
i miss them )=

memories are treasures that no one can steals <

2006-03-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

2005-12-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

take care, peeps.
i'll be at my grandma's place slacking (x
contact me if there's anything kaes.
LOTSOFLOVES- <3

ps xuel : sowwiee. dont think i cann acc you for yell0w bellies tmw yarhhs. tonnsofSORRYS. (._."') see you on chalet hors. tc (=

2005-04-15T08:45:00.000+08:00

ii LOVE my ddarlingg laa.
x)
happy one month . =D

2005-02-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

its been a long time,,
since i heard you tell your favourite story to me
i thought for a long time and wondered whyee
that was when im afraid
afraid tt i had done something wrong again

your were crying when you said
tt fairytales are just a lie
and i can nvr be your beloved prince.
but your nvr know
tt my skies lit up from the day you said you l0ve me

i wish to be the fairies in that story
the angels which you love
spread open my arms just like wings
and protect you fully
you have to believe
believe tt we will have a happy ending just like it
completed with happiness and bliss

together we'll write our story =))

-stopped blogging
t care,, people ! =DD

2005-02-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

you tell me your're in love with me,
tt you cant take your pretty eyes away from me.
its not tt i dont want to stay, but evrytime you come too close ; i'll walk away
i wanna believe in evrything you've said
cos it sounds so good
but if you really want me ; move it slow
there's things abt me
you just have to know

Sometimes i run,
sometimes i hide
sometimes im scared of you, but all i realliee want is to hold you tight, treat you right
be with you day and night.
baby, all i need is time.

i dont wanna be shy
evrytime im alone, i ll wonder whyee.
hope tt you will wait for me.
dont you see tt ; you're the only one for me

britney spears, sometimes

nice song. seems to fit in with my situation with you. haha. ((=
i like things the way it is ; but if you still cant see it. there;s nthg i can do.
=DD

14o4_o4 ,, gina's bdae celebration in school
o3o5_o4 ,, my bdae celebration in school
o2o6_o4 ,, kl trip with 2honourable
21o7_o4 ,, hcjz
24o8_o4 ,, manda's bdae celbration in school
o6o9_o4 ,, shand's bdae ; escape theme park
15o9_o4 ,, jia en's bdae celebration in school
24o9_o4 ,, make up celebration
o61o_o4 ,, jocelyn's bdae celebration in school
o8`o9`1o11_o4 ,, 2honourable chalet ; bbq
1211_o4 ,, ktv
that was all the great times we had. evrything. evryone who mattered so so so muchh to me. yet evrything seems so long ago. so faded. things nvr would be the same. that day showed it all. people i thought was the closest and the least to drift apart, moved away. we were so near yet so far and that feeling sucked. simply sucked. ~~fcuk~~ i give up. reallie. be angry, be disappointed, be whatever you want. i just give up. its realliee tough. scold me bitch, slut for all i care,, whyee shuld i give a single darn care abt it when you people dont? why shuld i give so much so much tries only to be scoffed by you guys in the end ? realliee,, its a tough journey. i quit this game. this tideous game. even if it means losing my prized winnigs,, what's nvr meant to be yours,, nvr will. if our friendship could be tt strong, it will be like the past. for now, the ending just seems bleak. a endless run. I GIVE UP. ))x

TSY ;
im so glad tt in my life i have you.
8 years.
we lasted so long and it will continued right..?
iiLOVEyou dear. (x
sounded so les. haha =p
and people arnd her,, dont bully her
you know who you are
stop making my darhling sad
care for her feelings, okay
have her in your eyes.
not just them
darling,, no matter what, you still have ME kay ?
smile, shweetly * =))

stopped blogging ,, 2o february ,, 11:o9
no special reasons
take care people !
happy 2oo5 =DD

2005-02-15T13:17:00.000+08:00

cant believe it.
just a few weeks i thought my life was PERFECT.
i was happy. i was contented.
now its like evrything just seems to be crashing down.
in a sudden.

#/he dont know what im thinking ;
not doing well in my tests
flunking my maths
dont understand physics
slacking in POA
o9 cuts on my hands
and losing my FRIENDS )):
my life is in a ~~fcuking~~ mess nw. i hurt HIM in an accidental way.
how the hell am i gonna clean them up. fcuk`

the memories which we thought would last long ,,didnt
the friendship i thought we could treasure deeply,, didnt
the closeness we used to share
the secrets ; laughter
are playing like a flim without snd
it realliee is darn ~~fcuking~~ hard
its hard to keep up with each other
guessing each other's thinking , mindset
clearing up misunderstandings
nobody can deny e fact tt we are DRIFTING APART
as much as we hate to admit it
the aftermaths of separation are dawning and hitting me HARD
seriously
but what can be done ; explaination only makes more complications
`sighh -

TO GURL ; BAOBEI [caniistillcallyouthat?)):]
when i walked off today, memories flooded in. just a year ago,, we were so much so muchh closer. how on earth did things come to thishh way,, how on earth did it reach this state.
i thought our friendship could stand strong above all,, but.. `haishh. many times,, i thought it was just plain me being silly. but after today, i guessed its wrong. very wrong. whyee were they the ones who were by my side after all this times ? and not the people i once held so closely and dearly to my heart . . haiishh. i realliee hope to be like the old times,, could we..? siighh -
JORDAN ; dearestDIDI ((X
thank youu. thank youu for your PIGLET. x)) i LOVE it can. of course, love youu too LAA. haha.
hmmm,, i dont care what others say,, what people say i am. as long as i have you yarhs ? hehh`z
certainly do hope we can stay jie`di for as long as possible. smile*, sweetly ;; =DD
FAUSTINE ; jie ((:
iiLOVEyouu too ! mwahs ~

thank youu people.
for all your persents !
shuldnt be updating anymore thishh feww days.

. . happy valentine's day . .

2005-02-05T11:47:00.000+08:00

i need #youu to listen with your heart and feel with it. not by asking, knowing, thru your mind. understand the, please.

2005-02-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

i'm happy. happy with my life now. :)

2005-02-02T09:22:00.000+08:00

what if evrything was too good to be true ? too good tt it wasnt even meant to be mine to begin with ;; perhaps it was all too wrong to start with ,,
`sighh -

2005-01-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

missing the past doesnt make anything come true. sighh -

2005-01-21T07:52:00.000+08:00

im gonna st0pp blogging for 2 weeks bec0s ii h0pe they will have a chance to readd this. `sighh -

MANDA
hey girl ;; rmb th0se times ii cried ?
you were there to cheer me up and c0mfort me
you made me laugh and forget abt the pain
and now its my turn
but when ii saw what happen
ii didnt know what to d0, what to say or even how to react
but ii want you to know
that pe0ple cry
it is normal.
girls cry
b0ys cry
even me.
crying is not sin neither is it a crime
crying is a sign 0f emotions
you cant keep them bottled d0wn
let them out
y0u'll feel mcuh mcuh bettr yarhs ?
and the thing that bugs me most
was the fact that ii couldnt help
in any wayy t0 lessen your pain,
ii couldnt st0p your tears
ii couldnt s0lve your problems
it realliee pained me
to my best buddy wh0 used to be the clown break d0wn
and that you could do n0thing abt it.
but ii want you to know ;;
that we may be in diff classes
we may not be as cl0se like bef0re
and in future, even if we may not talk anym0re
ii appeal to you that whenever, wherever you're d0wn ;
ii will listen if you need me t0
ii may not know your pr0blems
but the door leading from me to you
will NVR cl0se yarhs ?
iiLoveYou ;; BESTEST BUDDY :))

XINYI
iim s0rry .
so so so veh muchh sorry
will you be angry ?
0r rather ; are you angry?
ii m sorry ii left you t0day
i h0pe you'll understand . .
even th0ugh ii know you for like 3 weeks
you're my go0d friiend already
:)
and ii know ;
sorries doesnt cure, but other than that
ii realliee d0nt know what to say.
( !-! )
so xinyi ;
a milli0nth sorry to you
:((

and to you.
you're the dumbest pers0n ii ve ever seen 0n earth ;
and to think ii trusted and believed in you .
updates ;
YONG GUO HAO
jerk .
the last thing ii hate pe0ple to do me is to lie
it takes time to build trust
it takes time for one to feel comfortable arnd his friiends
it takes time to wipe away the shyness
and be good friends
it takes to trust, to learn, to rmb ;
and it takes time to f0rgive and forget and build friendship
you crashed down evrything with a lie
for stupid reas0n
made up 0f silly excuse
how do you expect me to believe in you when that was not the first time ?
ii cant take it lying down
like ii did the first time, second time
ii just cant believe the reason you gave
so stop harassing me before the resentment gets deeper
and misunderstanding get more complicated
if its the time ; you will know
time will erased evrything
`sigh -

2005-01-19T12:33:00.000+08:00

yeah. evrything is fine . ((=

0h ; it feels like ii can finally rest my head on sthg real
ii like the way that feels . :)

2005-01-18T09:18:00.000+08:00

okay ; firstly, im g0nna apologise t0 xinyi ;
xinyi ; superb sorry yarhs ?
ii realliee dinch meant to play you out.
ii'll go next week derh.
SORRY ; ~>.<~

learnt certain FACTS abt some pe0ple's lifestyle IN SCHOOL.
get it ? keyw0rd is in sch0ol haha. xueling and peeps sh0uld know what im refering to. LOL - not my fault it spread tt far. I M INNOCENT. =x wakakas -
0kay ; JUST FOR YOU gerll*
xueling is nice . =DD

ii didnt meant for things to happen that way. it's just the way you handle things that make you upset. 0r rather ; my perspective 0f thinking. ii d0nt know. things didnt turned out right, things didnt g0 the way we wanted it t0. i know. its me ; but ii just cant stand it. i DONT like being treated that way ; maybe others can, but definitely ~~n0t me~~ . things will be right in the end . . w0nt it ? )x

tell me. tell me that what i've heard, what ii've kn0wn abt you is wr0ng .
tell me that pe0ple have mistaken you
and that all that ii had learnt ab0ut are purely thrash
thrash that DONT describe the real you
thrash that pe0ple twisted
thrash that isnt true.
ii Dont need you ; ii d0nt want y0u
ii d0nt need you by my side
ii d0nt need you in my life
ii dont want you back
and ii will be fine
ii will be str0ng
ii WILL be happy ; just like the way you can be.
ii will let y0u see ; that you DONT affect me.
[~~fcuk~~*]

2005-01-15T08:43:00.000+08:00

sch0ol is fun
haha ;;
cant believe im actually saying this.
yups.
despite 0f
- physics
- maths
- p0a
- mdm lye
- mr k0h
everything is NICE actually.
xinyi's nice.
limw0an's nice.
cheryl's nice.
shar0n, yun ling, zhiyu, jun jie, alwin are nice to0.
3f isn't that bad after all laa ii've c0me to realised.
xueling asked that day ;
if ii like 3f,
and ii actually paused to think
haha.
3f is nice. =))
but 0f course ;
2h0nourableIsTheBest0fTheBest. ((=
and n0thing's gonna change that and the place it stands in my heart.
ii swear. (=

supp0sed to have chem less0ns
but mr tien cancelled it !
waste my 2o mins sitting there
haha
then went c0mpass with xueling and pe0ple
and XINYI [see, ii b0lded and enlarged your name leh. haha]
and sunday ii m going to xinyi's church !
yeahs ;; =DD
2 weeks latr g0ing outs with duckie*
for cny cl0thes. lol -
and ii b0oked yeeshi.
haha.
duckie* MY BOOK COVER WILL NOT DROP AFTER 6 MTHS
ii will pr0ve that kay.
l0l -
silly gerll *

2 h 0 n o u r a b l e _____ x f0revaz

2005-01-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

sk0ol was nice.
realliee . its was.
except f0r the missing 0f 2h __ ppart ;
evrything was perfectly okay.
((=

2005-01-07T15:46:00.000+08:00

___ . . n0thing's gonna change my l0ve for you . . ____

ii want the times ii spent with hcjz back.

ii want the times spent with 2h_o4` back .

i WANT 2oo4 back . (!-!)

* { / iiMishhYou \ } *

2005-01-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

its a new yr ; a new class ; new teachers ; new lessons ; new evrything .

even most of the classmates are new. i got the feeling that i just dont fit in. sigh`z. 2h ; hcjz, i mishh y0o guys. lots. i like the pe0ple in my class, but i d0nt like 3f. strange expressions though, but thats exactly how i felt deep d0wn. i miss 2honourable's peeps ~~fcukin~~ much. esp ; manda. i miss those days we sat at the back and how we would promise to work hard and listen in class yet end up slacking. i miss our darling radi0, pur dirty corner, how jocelyn would sweep the area, i miss dearie gina. how she would scream and yell and j0ke with ha0lun, calling him her la0gong. i miss leslie and jason, weixing and junjie. i miss how shand would come over and sit with me ; i miss our lil` squabbles, jiaen. i miss how i would use to shout over the classro0m to xueling. our water fight, quarrels with si qi and pe0ple. i miss mrs rema. 2honourable ; i miss uu ~~fucking~~l0ts. god ; can i have them back ? because there's n0 way i can take them back, no way that time can go back n0w. noWay. i nvr told you guys that iiLoveYou ; now i will. iiLoveEachAndEvryOneOfYou ; tillDeathDoUsApart .

~>.<~

even if we can meet up n0w, waiting for each other aftr less0ns, but can we d0 so 6 mths d0wn the road ? will our friendship last or will we have new circle of friends by then ? what if in the future i cry, you guys dont even care ? what if i break d0wn in my class, will you all be there? or will you all just walk away and brush me off ? what if you guys d0nt care anym0re ? will we see each other in corrid0r and just say hi and bye or perhaps not even a glance and just walk away ? will you guys snicker at me with your new friends ? will you all forget evrything and start afresh with someone ? will we be like strangers ?

s0 many d0ubts, yet not a single answer. i hate separati0n. realie hate it to the core. i d0nt want another 6-8 st0ry to repeat. n0 way.

pe0ple ; i will m0ve on but i w0nt forget y0o. reallie no. i will try very best to h0ld on even if it means struggling. because ; iiLoveYou _____ * =)

gina, im s0rry and thank you. for standing by me all this while. you must work hard t0o kays > d0nt forget our aims yarhs . hehh`z =D

i will miss your lameness and stupid jokes. of course, your bhb-ness. haha. ii love yoo, girl.

2005-01-01T18:00:00.000+08:00
its a new yr. 2oo5
time flies d0nt they.
seems like just ytd when ii sat in class with shand ; do0dling away in la0 lee 's less0n, sleeping in hist0ry, and crapping away in hcl, eating in class, running away when discipline teachers were in sight.. class chalet ; shand's bdae outing ; jamming the machines in kovan's print club ; singing birthday song ; cakes ; fighting to open 2h's class do0r ; assemblies.. blahh. and so many so many more. and ii just wan 2honourable's peeps to know.. whether we had been on good terms or not, let bygones be bygones and that ii ll rmb 2h_o4` forever in my heart.

special pe0ple ii wanna thanks deep d0wn from my heart *
o1 - amanda seah ; la0gong iiLoveYou kay. and although we are in diff class, youSTIL need to go to and fro from sko0l with ME. aha. ilu* (=
o2 - ye0 xuelinqq ; ba0beii . you better go recharge your MAGIC * kays. if not ii wont go out withh you ler . LOL . and leave [ your class that PERSON* ] ahem! alone kays. ta shi wo der !! haha . ilu * . mwah. sly r0x. lol
o3 - ha0 lun; for surviving with me throughout the whole yr's band ! esp that tym wen i quarrel wth her and for letting me sign class logbo0k in hcl less0n's. haha. bestest buddies !
o5 - gu0ha0 ; thanks for sticking with me be it happie moments or sad ones. and even though i often show my temper to YOU, you didnt do so to me and i appreciate that v mcuh. reallie. thanks friiend ! :)
o6 - TSY ; of course, not forgetting you.. haha. my superb dearrie* another yr pass and our friiendship is another yr older. okay larhs ; LOVE YOU THE MOST CANNS. x)
o7 - dayu, jimmy, ah huat, desm0nd ; for bringing joy int0 my live ! glad that we f0und our friendsgip bakc and that the gap dinch widen at all. going off to army lerhs ; nobody play with me lerhs. siigh`z. LOL -
o8 - LENA ; my dear mei mei. its 145 and whyee arent youu HOME ? LOL . okay. i miss u. for that few short hours.HAHA. tag me if you see this. =p
o9 - LINDA; my another dear mei mei. i mis your quarelling and crying with lena. =x aha.
1o - j0nathantanyiming ; thanks for appearing in my life and mess up EVRYTHING though. well done.

well ; and of cos.. kellyn, melissa, junda, eric, lucaz, benjamin, angie, rebecca, baxil.. pe0ple ii met and knew in 2oo4. may our friiendship last ! =)

and new yr wish ;
# bless my family and friiends !:)

2004-12-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

ii ve changed my mindset. kung fu is a nice sh0w. haha. very worth watching indeed. :)) watched it at plaza singapura with xueling, j0celyn, erica, haolun, leslie. sherman and kianguan. and guess wh0 did i met there ? hmm..
DESMOND !!
yay! i may not show it ; but im gleefully happy that i saw him. :)) like for months nvr see him, thats whyee im excited to see him todayy ! thank you g0d ; for allowing me to catch a glimpse of my favourite friiend. (: blahh. =p and for the whole movie, he was seating behind me. haha. pure coincidental. lol
from todayy onwards ; im gonna quit thinking about you, quit daydreaming of you, and stop wishing and hoping for your messages or number to appear. yups ; and im gonna accomplish all that i've said. and of course, st0p being sad and all for you. yups. im a happy gurl. lalala`s- =p and what more, i have [ the wallet sh0p ] guy okay. wahaha`s =P and i know some day in the future im going to regret this decision i've made. but until that day ; i WILL be str0ng. i WILL be happy matter what. yay! ( = n.n = )v

and may god bless those who had lost their lives or l0ved ones in that disaster. x(

the wallet shop rocks man !
:)

guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao guohao
xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling xueling
for pe0ple who requested it. haha =P

2004-12-29T15:09:00.000+08:00

the wallet sh0p guy ish cute kays. and when i say cute ; it means SUPERB cute + shuai. realliee. when shand to0k the wallet to the counter, he offered to get her a new one. i was like trying to hide my smile. sound and l0ok dumb canns. l0ls. turns out the the "new" wallet had s0me stains. haha. so shand t0ok it to him and change for another. and OMG. i could die just by listening to the way he speaks. let alone seeing his go0fy smile and evrything else. haha. i know. i snd stupidly pervertic. cant help it. l0ls. and of course ; ii bought ba0lai's gift. a billab0ng sweatband in a glass b0ttle. hmm. haha.

yups. and im going out tmw. withh ha0 lun, sherman.. hcjz and other 2h peeps. yappie. happy happy.. its like for a l0ng time nv get together ler. so im l0oking forward to it. plus manda is going !!. hehh`z. watching kung fu hustle ii guess bahs. dinch realliee like it but its wh0 you watch it with that matters.

:)

and for what happen t0dayy. im not able t0 explain it. realliee. like last time, the feeling wasnt there. the heartbeat, the excitement wasnt there. n0thing. but s0mething else was there. definitely. heartache. it hurts me alot, just by l0oking at you. strange was that when you were right in fr0nt of me ; i didnt care. not one bit. i didnt even want to see you. and as so0n your back was turned ; i tried v v v hard to find you back. i wanted to have eye contact with you ; i wanted to smile at you ; and i wanted to talk to y0u. even for just a simple hi. i wanted you that much that badly. but when im reminded of wh0 you were with, my heart sank. deeply. and heartache hit me. i couldnt cry. no way. bec0s i belief that when y0u are l0vinqq s0meone, you should be happy, be blissful. ~~not sad~~. i tried to give you up. to st0p thinking abt y0u. burd the mem0ries remained that fresh, your smile, the way you said hi.. evrything seemed so new and recent. i d0nt want to let g0 of my h0pes.

maybe. perhaps thats g0d's punishment to me. i didnt treasure him*in the past. the feelings wasnt true and the relati0nship nvr last. i t0ok evrything for granted. i t0yed and played with your heart and n0w im receiving my punishment.

im truely s0rry.

g0d ; will you forgive me ?

the feeling of being s0 near yet so far is t0o hard for me to bear.
:((

2004-12-28T03:25:00.000+08:00
G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

G U O H A O

haha. gu0hao ; i ve finally bl0gged abt you. l0ls.
like it ?
=P

2004-12-27T05:57:00.000+08:00

Santa ; you lied. or maybe im dumb. im sillyy. to believe in you. christmas's wishes DONT come true. whats so big deal about christmas ?

it's just ANOTHER day.

okays.. i sppent my christmas THISH wayy. i met sy nn she passed me my gift. from ba0lai. haha ; its nice. ii like it. in fact l0ve it to bits. haha. thhanks ((= on the way ; some lil KIDS insulted it. that set me off. that stupid lil piece of bones n skins shouted that MY doggie was LAN.

na zhi gou puo puo lan lan der !

darn. that was what he shouted. haha. wretched little kid. blahh. shant argue with him ; im a NICE girl. l0ls. denchh we met jeremy ; ming ya0 ; andd other pe0ple whomm i forgot the names. l0ls. palyed UNO. can you believe it ? ii spent christmas while playing uno with kids at a void deck. wow. fantastic way of spending christmas. haha. sy had to go home. she left me with jeremy. haha. but it wasnt that bad ; a gurl there taught me how to play poker. haha. now i know how to play ler. l0ls. mummy called and said i could go home. haha. before i left ; jeremy sms nn asked me to message him when im home. i was shocked. real shocked. dint expect that to come out form him. and at that moment ; i realised. he had grew up. haha.

and that's how ii spent christmas.

GOD ; will you listen to me ?

2004-12-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

its 1 am. ii feel like dd0in my homeworkk. iim crazyy. ii must bbe.
l0ls.

t0dayy went outt widd darhlinqq precious gina.
ytd date her ; was like thinkinng if she will dua me nots
or that we would be silent diam diam all the wayy..
its like for weeks nvr met up
actuallyy thought it would be weirdd nn stuffs like that
turnedd out to bbe totallyy OPPOSITE
l0ls

she was crazyy. im crazyy too. so crazyy+crazy= EXTREME CRAZINESS
woahs.
l0ls
went to collect our pay denchh headed to bugis
wanted to buyy pencil case ; wallet..
but there wasnt any that ii liked.
except for aa 23 bbucks bbillab0ng jumb0 pencil case
gina said ii am madd to get that
hahaxz ;
and a 16.9o wallet
a tiny nn flat one.
l0ls
gguess ii stil needmore consideration
=x
and the guy in the wallet is HANDSOME
=DD
went to kfc for lunch andd gina saw her GUY
a lizard guy ii thought ; =p
to0kk train to heeren
ggina bought gifts nn stuff
got herself a von-dutch baqq
nice nice ; haha
we to0kk pic nn kinda gort bboringg
sho its HOME
hehh`z ..

went to meet my #ddear
hahaxz
like so l0ng nv c herr when in fact its only for 5 dayys
l0ls
denchh ii was darn happyy todayy
dont kknow whats the reas0nn too
hahaxz
hadd a chhat withh jingrui ah huat at the bball court
crappingg arnd as usual
and hhome ; to a nice ddinner whipped bymy DADDIE
=DD
. . happie happie . .

ggoinn outt with gina nn xuelinqq tmw nighht
got bbq before that
hhope dey wont dua me
=))
andd meetingg gina next week. againn.
hahaxz
to cut hhair ; take books ; buyy stationeries
and of course ; crap arnd before sko0l reopen.
and to get my homeworkk ddone.
hehh`z

**********************
merry christmas ` pe0ple
=DD
***********************

ii want my wish to come true, Santa
ii want HIM for christmas, Santa
someone told me to believe in you ;
that you wil make it come true.
i will
i will try very hard to do so.
let my efforts be worthy okays ?

make ervybody's wish come true ____ Santa

#ddear Santa

2004-12-23T00:29:00.000+08:00
0kayys.
nnew bl0gg ; new skkinn
wh0osht ~
n.Nn

2004-10-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

ii' nvr meant tuhh` [ fall iin l0vee] wiith ; y0o*
; anyy idea h0ww muchh ` pain ii m g0iin thru ?
; anyy ideea h0ww muchh tymm i've waited
/ f0rr yoo*__?
ii dunchh wan-x anythiing else ;
ii onlyy sought f0rr [y0r l0vee___.
y0r a c c e p t a n c e.
n0thiing else ; n0bodii else //
ii onlyy likee y0o____is that t0o muchh tuhh askk f0rr ?
youu dunox howw it feel t0o be hurt
; t0 feel l0st
tuhh be left out iin the darkk
to ` be on the edgee 0bb breakiing d0wn /
andd n0 one ish there tuhh savee youu

[ ii do aniithing f0rr you ;
anyy thing youu want mee tuhh `]
[ ii g0 anywhere f0rr youu ;
anyy where y0uu askk miee too ]

hcjz ;
f0rr the first tym iin muyy lifee ;
im afraidd 0bb the harsh reality im being thrust int0
unexpectedly /
the fact ishh
teariing mee apart '
i dunchh want tuhh be ~~independent~~ _
ii like it the wae it is /
d u n c h w i s h t u h l e a v e
yoo guys __

2004-10-16T06:09:00.000+08:00
ytd went bugis widd
`shandd ` xue' ` la0gong
to0k pict denchh` wii go
; heartlandd derr mac
cox deyy wans eatt macflurryy
hahaxz. endd up miee oshox eat
` kena influenced, uu c
l0ls. denchh saww cl0rine.
go pull muyy clip. l0ls
t0kk sho muchh crapps n rubbishh
hahaxz. tokk abt ~~lee hsien l0ong~~
cca ; olvl __
niiwae, wi were jus luffiing nn crappiin awae yarhs ?
denchh thishh butch cumm t mand n0,sae herr fwenn wans
l0ls. the guy name corr ; h0 k__
cute name hors, gurls ?
l0ls. bluffiin herr wae thru.
and ___tell uu guys,; heartland der mac g0txz shuaige`x wans.
hmmm.. budd all p0ly derr age yarhs ?
saw a guyy widd specs , a guyy widd sorta like a capp
andd a guyy whoo lo0k lykk
benjamin / wilburr pan
co0l hors. l0ls
denchh the guyy widd specs ishh corr michael
aha + cute. guyy . l0ls.
denchh at nyet alm0st quarrell wiid jiAen n0rsh
`gurl ; dunchh sae to0piig n silly again yarhs ?
i tag ure b0ardd ; go c kayys ?

baby / gurl*
sick yeahhs ? musx takee g0odd kaairee obb zi ji yarhs ?
h0pee tuu c uu guyys on mondae yarhs ?
dun disapp0iint mee hors ! l0ls x)

im so ~~tiredd~~
tiredd obb waitiing
eachh tymm i waitedd ; i g0txz hurt
i n0ii im silly
budd except tuu wait ;
whadd canns ii d0 ?
*[...]

ii ` neverrx meant ; tuu ~~fall * inn l0vee~~ widd y0o* .

2004-10-14T12:38:00.000+08:00
yipee.
to0piig xams finalli overr lerxz.
but s0rta miss it.
miss dose stardiingg daes.
l0ls. crazee wans mee.
dennch aftr sko0l go heartlannd
t pict widd hcjz
hahaxz. nice =)
denchh wii al went pungg0l end
but miee habb ter` leavee earlii
luckki g0txz laogong pei wo
denchh aftr mit sy ; fwens
deyy shox k.ute andd farniie .
hurs +

jiaen ;
hey gurl
whadd happenn tu yoo?
dun niida sae oshox nvm
budd pwomisee wo
yoo will t g0od kaairee
ob zii ji yarhs ?
no matterr whadd
yoo stil habb mee
still habb hcjz kayys ?
mwahhs.

mand ; la0gong
heyy
dunchh w0rri too muchiie abt whad happenn yarhs?
ii belieff he will miing baii yoo derxz
sorie ii cant be widd at all tyms
budd wo pwomisee
that ii be byy y0or sidee
kayys?
no matter whadd
y0o stil habb wo yarhs ?
mwahs.
=)

* i nv meant to fall iin l0vee wiid y0o ___
hadd ii noii it wudd be sho
heartbweakiing
i'll ratherr ch0ose not to.
but i jus cant seem to leave yoo.
cant bear to
dun wiishh to.
dun want too.
; zhenn derr hao xii huann nii*
qiing nii bu ya0 fangg qii wo ;
yiing weii wo bu huii fang shou
zhenn derr zhi xi huann nii yi ge
qiu nii* xiang xinng wo ha0 mahs ?
*nv.g0nna.let.go
nv.g0nna.sae.g0odbye *
nv.gonna.be.replacedd ________

2004-10-05T12:57:00.000+08:00
I'm sorry that I’ve hurrt y0o*
I 'm jus unsure.
Unsure of y0o
And most of all
Unsure of me.
I n0ii im being selfish
I jus cannt bearr t0o t anii m0ree pain
Gibb miee sum tymm
To accept
To accept y0o
To accept muyself
Andd to fiind a wae
To place bacc
The l0st trust _____

Thankeww evryb0dii
I'll rmb that and everyone wh0 kaairedd.=]

Ba0beii derr [sy]*
s 0 r r y____
sum tiints I juss dunn wish to sae
nortt that I dunn trust nii*
kays?
w0 huii tc of muyself
y0o too yarhs?
I’ll be therr f0rr y0o
Jus like y0o beenn there forr miee
Andd
x.// ure.the.best \\.x =))

2004-10-05T10:10:00.000+08:00
Im sorry that I’ve hurrt y0o*
I m jus unsure.
Unsure of y0o
And most of all
Unsure of me.
I n0ii im being selfish
I jus cannt bearr t0o t anii m0ree pain
Gibb miee sum tymm
To accept
To accept y0o
To accept muyself
Andd to fiind a wae
To place bacc
The l0st trust _____

Thankeww evryb0dii
I’ll rmb that and everyone wh0 kaairedd.=]

Ba0beii derr [sy]*
s 0 r r y____
sum tiints I juss dunn wish to sae
nortt that I dunn trust nii*
kays?
w0 huii tc of muyself
y0o too yarhs?
I’ll be therr f0rr y0o
Jus like y0o beenn there forr miee
Andd
x.// ure.the.best \\.x =))

2004-10-05T10:06:00.000+08:00
I’m sorry that I’ve hurrt y0o*
I ‘m jus unsure.
Unsure of y0o
And most of all
Unsure of me.
I n0ii im being selfish
I jus cannt bearr t0o t anii m0ree pain
Gibb miee sum tymm
To accept
To accept y0o
To accept muyself
Andd to fiind a wae
To place bacc
The l0st trust _____

Thankeww evryb0dii
I’ll rmb that and everyone wh0 kaairedd.=]

Ba0beii derr [sy]*
s 0 r r y____
sum tiints I juss dunn wish to sae
nortt that I dunn trust nii*
kays?
w0 huii tc of muyself
y0o too yarhs?
I’ll be therr f0rr y0o
Jus like y0o beenn there forr miee
Andd
x.// ure.the.best \\.x =))

2004-10-05T10:05:00.001+08:00

2004-10-05T10:03:00.000+08:00
Im sorry that I’ve hurrt y0o*
I m jus unsure.
Unsure of y0o
And most of all
Unsure of me.
I n0ii im being selfish
I jus cannt bearr t0o t anii m0ree pain
Gibb miee sum tymm
To accept
To accept y0o
To accept muyself
Andd to fiind a wae
To place bacc
The l0st trust _____

Thankeww evryb0dii
I’ll rmb that and everyone wh0 kaairedd.=]

Ba0beii derr [sy]*
s 0 r r y____
sum tiints I juss dunn wish to sae
nortt that I dunn trust nii*
kays?
w0 huii tc of muyself
y0o too yarhs?
I’ll be therr f0rr y0o
Jus like y0o beenn there forr miee
Andd
x.// ure.the.best \\.x =))

2004-10-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

2004-10-05T00:47:00.000+08:00
i'm s0rry that i've hurt y0o*
i'm just unsure.
unsure of y0o
and mostt off all
unsuree of me.
i n0ii im being selfiish
i just cannt bearr t0 takke anii m0ree paiin
give miE summ tym
t0 accept.
t0 accept y0o
to accept muyselff
anDd to fiind a wae
to placee bacc
the l0st trust

thankeww evrybodii___
i'll rmbb all that y0o have saidd and evryone who kaairedd.
(^-^)

ba0beii derr [sy]*
i realli njoii the tymm spennt widd nii*
sorry___
sumtiints i jus dunchh wans to sae it out
norrt thatt i dun trust y0o kays?
dunn worrii
wo huii tc off muyselff
uu t0o yarhs ?
andd i'll bee there forr y0o
just like yoo've beenn there forr mE.
and m0st of all . .
x.// ure.the.best \\.x =))

2004-10-05T00:42:00.000+08:00
i'm s0rry that ive hurt y0o*
i' m just unsure.
unsure of y0o
most of all
unsure of me
i n0ii im beiing selfishh
but ii juss cannt bear any m0ree painn
gibb miee summ tym
t0 accept
to acceppt y0o
to acceptt me
andd t0 fiind a waee
to place bacc
the l0st t r u s t

thankew evryb0dii_______
i'll rmbb evryonee wh0 kaairedd =]

ba0beii derr [sy]*
i reallii njoii all the tymm spendd with nii*
sorry___
sometiints i dun wiish to sae kays?
but dunn worri..
wo huii tc of muyselff
y0o toox yarhs ?
i'll be there forr y0o
jus likke y0o were dere forr miee
andd
ure the bestest fwenn of all =))

2004-09-28T09:40:00.000+08:00
[pureaddicti0nn]

//x___im lying when i sae i d0nt l0ve yOo* ;

thakiew*
xue'
mel0dy_
limw0an;

i noi people kaaire__
andd i l0ve yOo and demm forr that.
s0meone said to miee once ; that different people uses different meth0dd to solve tiints.
...
aniiwae, xie xiE =]

2004-09-25T13:00:00.000+08:00
[pureaddicti0n]

nthg seems to go that way..
uu brought muy hart high
and uu let it drop.
Only mie myself and ii was there to pick it up.

No one else helped.

Where was the pwomise uu once made __
Where was the trust we once held __
Where was the l0ve uu once said it would be there __?
U had me on.
God noes the reason
But all I wanted t0 do and sae
Was that I’ll stil will wait forr uu
Cox n0thing’s gonna change the fact that

~~The person I l0ve is uu~~________

2004-09-24T13:23:00.000+08:00
[pureadditi0n]

Recently, or rather today, I ve found a new hobby for me.
That is to treat my hand like a writing board.

I use to think that people who cut themselves are silly.
Not now.
Now I clearly see it and understand it.

People cut themselves because their heart cant take the pain anymore.

; his name is so damn long.
But it doesn’t hurt at all.
Not one bit.

I did all this for ya.
But you wont even noi it__

Sorry* siying__

2004-09-22T12:32:00.000+08:00
zi c0ng ren shi nii* na tian qi
dui nii* derr xiang nian cong mei ting zhii guo_______.
er nii* . . .
que yi ba w0 wang derr yi gan er jing lerr

2004-09-19T11:19:00.000+08:00
[.pureaddicti0n.]

This entry is JiAen help wo blog de .. (^_^)

Saturdae ii skip band .. Hahaxz .. den pam brin chocolate .. i canotxz t .. *sobz .. lols . den furx tym stae overnight at sy de Jia . I'm da 1st person to stae lehs .. honoured xiaz .. hahaxz .. but i don dare sleep bed , den squeeze with her on mattress .. she morniin sae she din zZ well .. Hahax .. too bad .. i sleep like pig (^(oo)^)..noon tym , go miit se de *peng you _____. [kellyn , benjamin , junda , eric , lucaz , shingchoon]they all v fwenli and farnie .. kiip suan-ing sy .. kelian ..Hahaxz .. den walk-walk .. iwas lyk too tired and sianxz-sianxz , den kiip wantin to sit down .. =[ *sorwiie , cox i feel v xtraz .. den oshox hen lei .. Heexz .. aftr go Hougang mall , we wen split wae liaox .. sae bye-bye .. sy he wo go green .. say jingjie and allan .. bian shuai le .. Hahaxz .. t piic den sy go my hxe .. *soli , i v lazee .. nv pei uu go bus-stop .. nxt tym kays .. lols .. Tt night oshox nv zZ well , cox my cousin stae overnite .. 6 plux cor me wake up lerxz .. lolx ..

I'm waiting for a miracle .
I'm waiting for my happiness
I'm waiting for Him*

i m waiting for the impossible .

dui ni er yan
wo chu lerxz si nian ... hai shi si nian _____.
wo xiang ku*
ke shi wo ku bu chu . . . ( ; . : )

2004-09-14T13:01:00.000+08:00
I dunox what he diid
to make mE feel lidix
i dunox whO he was
bt he must be sOme kinda superstar . .

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of[[y0uu-x*nn.ii_____.
w0oho0x . . miEe v happi todae .. furzlii . . wo der ba0bEi laog0ng bdaEx ! .. =] den h0meE ec that tymm .. miee and shand he ha0 lers .. (^_-)v .. den bakee cake gib paM~ .. den she sae niCee .. l0ls . reCess tym go t manda der cake .. den xia0ting help us .. [[xiExiE~ .. gurl n miee run rnd sko0l .. find liGhter .. l0ls . in the end borrow from auntiee .. hahaxz .. wi sang song in klass .. =d .. aftr that pEei eric and jocelynn go citylink buy bag .. saw a tEe .. hmmmm.. musx saveE moneii lia0x .. lolx . aftr dat go bac harrtland .. t piC .. so happix .. furz tym hcjz dake pic and go out .. (^-^) .. at furz preSs wronli .. haas .. den wi sCreamm here screEam dere .. lols .. [[gurl~ .. bu . shi . nii* der cu0 lars .. =b .. saw jx and kelE .. wahaas .. so luCkii .. miee still bang int0 tmg .. xaiz suay = .. l0ls . to0pig manda .. kiip sayin evrytint ish cox of her burfdae . . =Z ..hahaxz ..
`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+`+
i.m.so.happi.
evryting.seem.t0.go.my.wae.todae.
(^-^)
if.onii.ii.cud.turn.bac.timee.
ii.wud.not.habb.cho0se.that.wae.
ii.miss.ya.fwenship.
most.of.all.
i m i ss yo u
ii.wan.youu.as.a.fwenn.
b a c k_________ .
s orry .
+++++++++++++
to0piG gurl~ :: h0pe nii* gotx nJoi todaEs .. happi bdaEs ! .. (^o^)

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of[[`y0uu-x*nn.ii_____.

it s . thE.w ae. y0uu* . ma.k E.miE e .f eel_____.

ii dun0x .. iF it was oni miE too sentitiveE .. i gan jueE wi lykk driftinn a p a r t . . . i dun wans to ____ youu .
but, like i saed bef0orr . . i thenK g0dd .
for allowin miee to mit ya
f0r givin miee a c h anc E to ren shi ni
for givin miee a chanC e to habb ya as fwen
and at least
for bwingin youu* nEar ______.
[whad.m0ree.cann.ii.askk.f0rr_____? //
^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^
i.miissh.y0uu ____.
i noi our fwenship ishx over .
and that you hate miee .
ish all caused byy nobodii but
wo zi ji ;
ha i x z
s0riieE .
ish all i canns sae le now . .
i.realli.misS.ya_____.
i mi s s o ur fr e n d s hi p
*[...]

+++++++++++++++++
paM aRx .. xiExiE~ f0rr ure muffin.x .. v niCee .. (^-^)

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of[[`youu-x*nn.ii_____.

i found a ` +__ - reas0n; ' x . * f0r mieE____.
t0 change wh0o i usEed to bE
a [[`reas0n to start over new; and the [[reas0n- is
y o u u_______.
^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*
ytd miit jiaEen n la0gong . befor that haolun`x pei miee wait .. [[xiExie~ =]] den buy miee op tee Cc= . den dey go muas hse . wreak havoc lohs . l0ls .. miee cook n serve dem . l0ls . den use com .. and dey DREW on ua board . to0pig gurls xiaz . lols . dilli-dally .. wanted to pwae bball der .. in the end neber .. l0ls .. neber mine .. nxt tym lohs . =]

ru.yao.zou
qing.nii*.ji.der.wo_____.

+++++++++
the line is drawn clear .
you betrayed my trust .

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-21T13:15:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of[[`youu-x*nn.ii_____.

ytd eye pain like siaox .. den eric n jocelynn sh0x go0d .. run to 7 eleven n buUy eyem0o for miee .. i shox gan dong .. den la0gong pEei miee t cabb home .. though moneii nortt hers .. haax .. dey shae ishx laO tiann yeE zu ding wan her to pei miee go h0me .. haas .. den dadii n marmieEx sh0x guan xinn-x wo .. [[` papa..marmiee .. woainiimen =]] . . den to daes banD .. paMela l0neli gurl~ .. cox jinGtinng never cumm .. haAs .. [c .. i BOLD ure namE .. l0ls .. rMb mua chocolatE bar`s .. (^-^) ]] den ha0lunnx pei wo go home .. sh0 hapPix .. thankiEw h0rs ..stil dig moneii f0r miEex .. haas ..
==========================================================
eriCc :: thankiEwx h0rx .. sh0 guan xinn wo .. i rmb der .. =]]
j0celyNn :: uu toO`x .. (^.^)
la0gonG :: to0piG gurl .. cab v shuanG hoRs .. l0ls .. thankiS niiwaEx ..
chErie, st, vk, ginA :: thanks f0r nii men der coNcern .. =]
xiExiE~ nii* mEn ___________.
gu 0ha`o :: shox kaAireeleSs .. lost hp .. =[ .. haas .. nXt tyMm be m0rEe caReful loHs .. niiwaEs .. s0lii .. nEber repli ya .. cox f0ne toOx britEe .. eye wilL pain .. dui.bu.qi . . [go0d enuFf mahs____? haas ]]

sumting`x canNs nv be the saMe aniim0re .
whaD you haB d0ne
whaD youu hab giVen
i guess its over btwn us______.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
19o8o4 :: hapPi`x bDae to youu-x* (^-^)

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of[[`y0uu-x*nn.ii______.
i ve seen things clearly now ..
al thanks to y0uu
you.ux made mieE realise
whose fwenshipP ishx trueE
n who are those who r pureeli faak-ers
sad to say
you.ux happen to be one of those
hyp.0cr.ites--x y
ii cal demM
i dun kaAire if i made you.ux s a d
i dun kaAire abt the pa.sst
i dun even wanx to kaAire if i ve hurt ya
bcox
ix tym ii get baC
you.ux huRt miEex tyMs
you.ux dissapPo0int miEex lots
you.ux betrayed miEe .
wo [ai] nii
dan wo gen [ai] wo zi ji
yu dao shang hai
wo xuan zer ta0 bi .
cal miEex bitch
for al i kaAire
i guEss evry gurls are bitches
at least once in their liFetym
so go on
cal miEe that
i dun gibb a damn
and i guess
thats the end
go0dbyEe
i.dun.wan.to.think.about.it.anni.m0ree
u.sux.sarks.damnright.to.the.c0re
sho.jus.fcukoff__________________________
and get out of myliFe*
frens fore^a.areE.jus.shit.btw.us .
get.this.straight
and.get.this.ryet
for o n c e
i h a t e E y o u

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-17T13:11:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of [[`y0uu-x*nn.ii____.

the pers0n hu canNs cheEr mie-x up . . ishx y0uu-x*
the pers0n hu canNs makE miEe s.m.i.l.e.E isHx y0uu-x*
the person hu canNs makE mie-x irritated
the pers0n hu canNs make mieE guilty
the pers0n huU canNs mieE luFf n cry ..
i s h x y0uu-x*
========================================
[nii] zai wo xin zhong .. hen zhong yao ..
k e sh i . . . =[[
y0uu-x* arE m0ree than jus sumbodii ______
y0uu-x* arE ev.ry t i n.t to miEe-x . .

to gu0hao =]] .. surprised___? haax .. nwaes .. tmw matCh .. mus jiayoU n winn horz .. (^-^)v .

[[`jiaN.dan :: aii--x ______.

2004-08-14T12:56:00.000+08:00

the.st0ree.of [[`y0uu-x*nn.ii_____.

sthg-x arex better to notx sae out ..
sthg-x are better to not be known ..
sthg-x are better to not think abourit . .
sthg-x are better off a l o n e . .
sthg-x are better . . to letgo*
*[ . . . ]